Things have drastically changed for me in just a few months it seems. Some for the good some for the bad. Lets get the worst over with shall we? Hmm... lets see my grandmother died of cancer two weeks ago and i've been in and out of the hospitals because of that, it's kind of shocking to believe that she's gone and I can't call her anymore or anything. I miss her terribly. Another not good thing is I feel like I have done something to a couple of my friends, they just don't act the same around me anymore it's like they try and freeze me somehow with their looks, I just wish I knew what I did I want to fix it, I don't know if I can. This is the first time in awhile i've really needed to vent so yeah sorry people. I just feel awful and need to. Instead of being doom and gloom forever I will go with the positive, which would be my wonderful amazing boyfriend of a month, we've known each other for like four months but we've only been together for a month, so yeah, everything is marvelous there. And well my birthday is coming up soon and that's exciting I guess, i'll be one year older and I can legally get into rated R movies lol.... My one wish is for everything to start getting better. I don't want to be the person who gets glared at, and talked about constantly behind my back. Sorry for the long venting.

-Spoons